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As a “highly sensitive person”, the American dream is my nightmare.

As an HSP or highly sensitive person, I don’t want to live that way anymore. I always knew that “The American Dream” was never truly my dream. I don’t know why I continued for so long trying to follow that way of thinking of how to live life. I don’t care that much about money. As long as I have the basics I feel pretty good. I don’t care about having a wife the house with the white picket fence and the 2.5 kids and a dog. Actually, it’s not really about that at all. It’s mostly about having to have a job that I completely hate doing something that causes me so much stress with people that I don’t even like. Why am I doing this? I guess it’s to have a nice home and health insurance and be able to have cable television and go out to eat a lot. I don’t think it’s worth it anymore. I would rather have almost nothing and be able to do something that I feel like is worthwhile in my life than have to deal with that a single second more. That is why I am on a leave of absence from work. I thought I might be going back at the end of the absence but I really think that it is just over for me. I will be informing them that I am done. Plus, I have realized the only way that anyone seems to want to help me is when I actually need help. Right now, I have what everyone thinks is a good job, a good place to live, a decent car, food for spending on fun, etc. They won’t want to give me any kind of help until I am desperate. I don’t really want to have to have help but I am not doing it the corporate work way anymore. If I end up hungry living in the woods then that’s what I’ll do but I’m not doing it their way anymore. If you read the book How to Make Work Work for the Highly Sensitive Person then I think you will understand where I’m coming from. If you still don’t, then you aren’t an HSP aka a highly sensitive person and you probably never will understand it.

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2 thoughts on “As a “highly sensitive person”, the American dream is my nightmare.

  1. Completely understand. My masters degree is in counseling and guess who can’t be a counselor because of oh, idk, high sensitivity…this guy (girl)! I got shingles when I was 30. I worked in a Baker-Act receiving facility for 3 months because it was horrible. I worked as an in-patient drug therapist for 3 months because I went home every day depressed and crying. Went to bed early every night and woke up every day with diarrhea. Fun times!

  2. That sounds like no fun. That’s great that you have your masters degree in counseling though! I have my masters degree in music. I haven’t been able to put it to much use yet. I am about to quit a job that I have had in computers for the past 8 months. I just can’t stand it anymore so I’m out of that job.

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